I stood in the living room too shocked to even move when Patrick shouted what he had just did.
“You’re the mother of my child, I should be able to fuck you when I want.”
“Patrick that was totally uncalled for,” I suddenly replied finally finding the words to say, “You’re an asshole, you know that, right?”
“I’m an asshole,” he laughed, “Toews is the one parading around like he is the father of my daughter and you’re calling me the asshole?”
“Leave Jon out of this,” I snapped. I was ready to kill him at any moment, “He’s been there for me unlike you, Mr. Jack Daniels.”
“Real mature, Kaicee, really, that’s such a great comeback. I think you’ve been hanging around Jon a little too much that your insults are getting lame just like his.”
“Fuck you, Patrick,” I spat as I grabbed my car keys and purse off of the table in the hallway.
“Where are you going?”
“Airport? For what?”
“I told you that if we had one more fight and you hurt me again, I was going to New York City and that’s where I’m going.”
“You don’t have clothes or a bag packed, you dumbass.”
“Hello, my aunt just had my cousin last year and we’re the same size, I’ll get by. By the way, the only dumbass is you because you’re letting me leave without fighting for your child, that’s pretty pathetic on your part.”
“I love my daughter, I just don’t love you.”
I didn’t even give him the pleasure of getting a response out of me before I walked out slamming the door behind me.
Before I pulled out of the garage of Patrick's apartment building, I called Erica.
“HE SAID WHAT,” Erica screamed as I told her what Pat had said.
“He basically came out and told me that he should be able to have sex with me whenever he wants because I’m the mother of his child and that he should be the only person allowed to have sex with me.”
“Fucking douchebag, you just wait until I get a hold of him.”
“It’s not worth it anymore Erica, it’s beyond threatening him and kicking his ass. I’m so fed up, I just want to come home to Buffalo.”
“Don’t stay there if you’re not happy, Kaicee. I know you are only staying because of Jon but come on, even Jon wants you to be happy.”
“I just wish Patrick would act differently. There are days he’s happy about Kendall and then there are days where he could give two shits.”
“Just leave, Kaicee. You’re my best friend and I hate it that my brother is standing there hurting you every single day and you are putting up with it because you want Kendall to have a father. Kendall deserves to be happy too and she won’t be happy living in a household where her parents fight all of the time.”
“You’re right,” I replied.
“Go back home, ignore him, get some sleep, and call me in the morning.”
“Okay, I’ll call you tomorrow.”
“Remember what I said and please promise me you’ll think about coming home.”
“I will, thanks Erica, it means a lot that you and your family care.”
“Anytime, love you skank.”
“Love you too hoebag.”
I hung up the phone and pulled into the Starbucks parking lot. I know caffeine is bad to drink when you’re pregnant but the double chocolatey chip frappucinos are made with cream and not coffee and that is what I was craving right now.
My phone rang breaking me out of my trance and I saw that it was Patrick calling me. I hit ignore and set my phone back down on the table as I started reading a book about pregnancies.
When I left the coffee shop, it was almost eight o’clock. Patrick was probably out on the town with Bur and Sharpie so I headed home to take a hot bath, get something to eat, and then go to sleep.
I walked into the house and closed the door behind me. I locked it and walked down the hall to my bedroom. I was in the middle of getting undressed to take a shower when I felt Patrick come up behind me and start kissing my neck.
“Patrick, stop it,” I replied as he bit down and I let out a scream.
“Even though you hate me and we fight all of the time, I still find you extremely sexy,” he whispered in my ear and he turned me around to face him. Before I could protest, he locked his lips on mine.
“I ca-can’t,” I whispered.
“You know I still have that effect on you when I do this,” he said running his finger down my arm as I closed my eyes. I didn’t need to see that he had a smirk on his face because I heard it in his voice, “Or when I do this,” he whispered as he ran his hands over my breasts.
Before I knew it, we were back to where we started and how we got into this mess in the first place.
“God, you’re so tight,” Patrick groaned against my lips as he entered me without a condom. What’s the use in using protection when you’re knocked up anyways.
Jon was in the back of my mind as Patrick began moving in and out of me. I pushed all the hatred I had for Patrick into the back of my mind as we both let out our frustrations.
I was screaming Patrick’s name as I came and he collapsed on top of me caressing my stomach. Suddenly coming to my senses, I shot up out of the bed and began screaming at him.
“YOU FUCKING ASSHOLE,” I screamed through tears as a smirk appeared on his face.
“You weren’t just saying that five minutes ago when you had no problems with me fucking you senseless.”
“Just did,” he smirked as I drew my fist back and punched him in the face. I knew he was going to have a black eye and quite frankly, I didn’t care. He deserved it.
“You are fucking impossible and I hate you. I wish I never even met you.”
I threw on a pair of sweatpants and grabbed a hoodie before I grabbed my purse and keys and got into my car again. This time, I need to go see the one person who could take away all of the pain and the one person that could make me smile no matter how bad I was feeling.
“JONNY,” I cried into the intercom, “Please wake up, I need you.”
“Kaicee,” he said greeting me at the front door immediately pulling me into his arms, “Sweetie, what happened?”
“Patrick, he,” I began before I started sobbing. I couldn’t even get the words out as he led me to the elevator.
He held me and whispered soothing words into my ear the whole way as I cried into his chest.
“What happened, Kaicee?”
“Patrick and I were fighting earlier and I left the house. I went to the Starbucks down the street and when I went back home, I was in my room getting undressed to take a shower when he came in started kissing my neck, long story short, one thing led to another and before I could even think we were having sex. I know it was wrong, Jonny, but I thought that maybe if I had sex with him we’d stop fighting. Jonny, I’m so sorry.”
I saw his jaw clench and him curl his fist into a ball but before he could do anything that would get him into trouble, I gave him a kiss on the lips and I felt him tense for a moment before he started kissing back.
“Just kiss me, Jonny, please make me forget him.”
There we stood in the middle of Jon’s living room kissing like our lives depended on it.
Kaicee and Jon stood in the middle of his living room kissing like it would be the last kiss that they ever shared.
“Kaicee, I’m not mad at you, technically we’re not official yet but after tonight when you told me you had sex with him, it just made me realize that I want you to commit to me and only me and I’ll commit to you and only you. I like you a lot and I’m jealous of Patrick right now. I want you to want me and I want to be there for you but I need you to be honest with me, do you love him?”
“I don’t love him, Jon and I never will,” Kaicee replied and Jon smiled before giving her a kiss.
Neither one of them knew that Patrick was standing on the other side of the door about to knock and apologize to his best friend and the mother of his daughter. Neither one of them saw the hurt that was in the young hockey player’s face as he heard the woman he was slowly beginning to care for say words that cut him like a knife.
Patrick didn’t know why he cared but he did and hearing the mother of his child say that she never would love him broke his heart but he was Patrick Kane, he could have any girl in the world he wanted. One chick wasn’t going to bring down his game, he wanted this baby to tame him but clearly that wouldn’t be the case because the mother was a selfish bitch who only cared about herself.
She ate his brain with false thoughts and she was slowly eating his heart with her words.